Misunderstandings
I’m battling with these emotions in my body and my mind
Some days are good, Some days I think of suicide. And carbonate dioxide to wash up my mind. It gets fucked up in there. And I try to keep my head up high. I try to remember all the good days but truthfully sometimes the only memory that prevails is that of a sad and messed up present. And I can’t hold on to the past. And I can’t look up to a future that hasn’t happened. And even though they see that I’ve got it going on for myself, it’s all twisted in there. It’s not just about a good career. Good finances. I’m not happy. I want to be happy. I will take the necessary steps to be happy.
But until then. I will brush up the bad moments and not let them define my present. I can do this. Even these are all just words I can do this.
Power of the tongue better be working because all I’ve got left is the good thoughts that were once shared with me in my dark moments.
Posted on January 26, 2013, in General and tagged depression, hope, optimism, sadness, struggles, Suicide. Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.
Hello,
As a brain tumor survivor I want to tell you that things will get better. I suffered from clinical depression for years so I know the dark pit and the hopelessness that lives there. Let me give you something to ponder. Let’s say the best day of your life has yet to be lived. Do you really want to miss it? Hang on.
Thank you for the love. I’m ever so grateful. I’ll raise my head high and remember you when I’m struggling to do so.